I know it's been awhile since I've written--it's been kind of a tough few weeks. I began the new chemo, Cisplatin, on the 14th of January, & have had a treatment each week for the past 4 weeks. The side effects the first week were awful--migraines and severe nausea--so they've given me a little something extra called "Emend" that has helped considerably these past few times. I've never had to do chemo every week before this time, so it's been a bit of a challenge mentally & physically. Yesterday, Kathy called with the good news that my CA-125, which had been up to 346, had gone down to 160--super yipee-yi-ay! They're also going to let me have next week off, which is a HUGE relief for me. It's been kind of tough to only have 1 or 2 days where I've felt okay, & then have to gear myself up to go do it again. By last Saturday, I would start feeling sick to my stomach at the mere thought of going in for chemo...I know it's all in my head, but feels very real. I'm not losing weight with the nausea..just the opposite. I lay around constantly snacking, trying to keep it at bay.
One of the highlights to this last month has been Mom getting an iPad. I have to say it's been wonderful because Jarett's p-day is on Mondays, & that's when I've been doing my chemo treatments so I can be feeling better by the weekend when the boys are off school. I was kind of bummed to think that I would be missing his emails while I was hooked up to the IV, but Mom just brings her iPad to the appointments, & while the infusion is going on, I can get Jarett's emails & do a little back & forth emailing during the half hour he gets on the computer at the public library in Fontana, CA. Ah...the blessings of modern technology! What a great world it is we live in!
I'd been dreading going in again for the chemo this week, when I reminded myself that the chemo is my friend...it is how Heavenly Father is working His miracles in my life & I need to have a feeling of gratitude for it, instead of being such a whiner. Having that attitude throughout the past couple of days has certainly helped me...I don't feel like it's been quite as bad this week. It just goes back to what I'm always harping on my kids about--having an attitude of gratitude makes a difference in everything. Love always, Kim
