Just Enjoying the Wait

Once again, the other day I spoke with someone who told me they wished I would post more often on the blog--and I honestly don't know what to write most days. Right now my life is incredibly boring. I am back to cooking for my family, cleaning my house & doing laundry, trying to grow hair and eyelashes, organizing photos and closets, and driving kids to and from activities. Can I say that I am absolutely loving life right now?

Vern and I met with the surgeon again today to find out a little bit more detail about the surgery next week. I've had a weird ache in my left arm for the past couple of weeks, and they're going to scan it on Wednesday, just to put my mind at ease; but honestly, I ache everywhere most days. I am trying to stay active because if I sit or lay for too long I'm like an 80- year old trying to get moving again. I am getting a little anxious about the surgery, but have been assured that it probably won't be as bad as my last one was. I am just trying to enjoy every day that I feel good and am able to be somewhat "normal" again (although I'm not sure if I've ever been completely normal!).

I was quite emotional all day yesterday--I don't know why I bothered putting any make-up on my 17 eyelashes because I had it all cried off within an hour. It was just that Easter day was a wonderful opportunity for me to read about and ponder on the priceless gift of the Atonement and Resurrection of the Savior. This Easter was more meaningful for me than I can remember. I'm sure it's because of all that my family and I have experienced these past 7 months. I have been so thankful that I have not had to suffer through this alone. I know that my Savior knows exactly what I am going through, and how best to comfort and help me, because He went through it--and so much more--in the garden of Gethsemane. The love that He has for me is at times almost incomprehensible, but I know that it is real. I am thankful also for His Resurrection. It gives me hope during my darkest hours that this life is not all there is--that our relationships are eternal, and our bodies will one day be gloriously reunited with our spirits. I know that none of this would be possible without His love & His perfect sacrifice--I would be utterly & completely lost without Him.

I wish I were more articulate and could better express my thoughts, love & gratitude to all who have fasted and prayed for me, and have given service to my family and me. Please know how grateful I am for you, how much I love you, and that I know our Heavenly Father sees all these wonderful things and will bless you for them.